I have needed to edit the cover heading and side bar on my blog for a while.
The problem, and reason I have put it off, ironically comes down to 'another nail in the coffin' of reality.
Tig is gone.
He is no longer the vibrant force who daily united our crazy household.
BUT....(Yes, it is a BIG BUT).
He will always be with us and an integral part of who Tim, Tae and I are.
You are not committed to someone for nearly 20 years without them becoming part of your being.
The boys and I have become the people we are due to him.
He was an amazing husband and a totally fabulous 'hands on' father.
Whenever I make decisions, my mind automatically flips towards what he would think or do.
I am parenting on my own now. His lack of physical presence does not stop me from considering his viewpoint. He was the Ying to my Yang. We balanced each other out in many ways. It is my job to continue and try to provide that balance for the boys now he is gone.
So where does that leave the blog....
not too different,
just a few tweaks here and there with wording.
I want to to honour how much he loved us and how hard we loved him back.
The title, Everyday with Tig, Tim and Tae stays - as his influence in our life does.
But, other things need updating. It was hard to do, but needed.